This morning I was mentally starting down some primrose path of worry, when it occurred to me just how absolutely irresponsible that kind of thinking is. I parallel it to thinking about drinking or being afraid of drinking, which is just plain irresponsible thinking for a recovering alcoholic like myself. The alcoholic thought form was given to the God, trading in for peace... And there it stays.
I have seen the light that is the Christ; everywhere and everyone.
So , what-up with the stinkin’ thinkin’?
It’s like I was sitting in the train station of the dream and rather than doing nothing and blessing (forgiving) all the brothers reflected there, some erroneous thought train of the separation variety, comes by, in other words, I see a problem. And rather than immediately questioning its source and seeing its falsity, I hop on the train thinking I can just party off the discomfort from establishing a problem in my mind rather than immediately forgive, and expect not to loose contact with communication ... Lord knows how long the drunk will last and what the fall-out will be. Once you’ve chosen a different source of self to operate from, you’re at the mercy of its dictates for as long as it wants, till it spits you out at deaths door. The miracle is easy to choose then… but isn’t that what the Atonement is for, to save me from this needless journey to the cross? Haven’t I unlearned/learned that much?
Any justification on my part to imagine a problem is just Lazy addictive thinking. Imagining I can think without questioning is just plain irresponsible.
I am sorry…Please forgive me…Thank you…I love you.
The mass illusion of my so-called life or LOVE-NOW… that is the question…It’s gets down to this: it’s all about me … total responsibility: what do I want and how much do I want it.
Fear or love; hostage or host… my choice… my total responsibility!!! It’s just about turning to spirit in any form I think I find myself in and letting it rip... expressing however. It’s not like love cares, after all. I am all too familiar with catching myself with my proverbial ego pants -down', acting out the very drama I designed to delude myself into believing I was ‘doing spirituality/life the right way’ … as if… only to find myself back feeling ashamed and guilty. The attraction to guilt is a huge obstacle and one seemingly hard-wired into my little illusory brain. It shows up in the most bazaar ways like not wanting to do anything, see people, make any kind of commitments, and procrastinate, yada yada. Blah, blah… I feel the stirring of spirit, and then let fear immobilize me, talking time and space as if…
“FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, NO LONGER SEEK FOR UNION IN SEPARATION, NOR FOR FREEDOM IN BONDAGE…” As I release so will I be released… this is the only way to the experience of the perfect love of which I am.
It’s all my mind. It is the mind of God that I am serving… of nothing at all… so I am pretending or being. Nothing is happening until I decide to be truly helpful. I am only helpful in the right mind... It is my total freedom and my total responsibility. I stand in this place, being present. Here, Now. That’s all.
If I am not showing up for this one responsibility; this one life, the one I share with God, it is because fear has replace love in my mind…and correction is necessary befor anything can happen.
The correction of fear is my responsibility! When I am afraid it is a sign that I have raised bodily thoughts to the level of the mind. What I must do is cop to the truth of the situation and call it what it is. It is merely a question of what I want. I simply become aware of when I become afraid. Stop. Remember; I am responsible for what I think. There are no idol thoughts. So if I am afraid I have forgotten who I am. By acknowledging this, I take responsibility and then I can ask Jesus for a correction. The correction to right-mindedness or Love is guaranteed, and a certain as God is now…
I love this line; "You cannot have a happy home with a chaotic mind at the helm." I read on Revie in Rollers site this morning. Thanks Lee!
So true. Its all me... I cannot have a happy home with a chaotic mind at the helm... and I cannot have a chaotic home with a peaceful, happy mind at the helm... what a load of rose-colored crap/glasses I have hidden myself beneath... I can only laugh... the big cosmic belly laugh sweeps me up in the only expression forgiveness prompts, shedding the shackles of denial… I am singing hallelujah in grateful receiving….
Okay, here’s the story…It seems these teenage sons/angels have been working overtime/blessing me with the reflection of the conflict and chaos in my mind. I fancy myself as one who chooses peace of mind, pretty much always. I know, is it pretty much (in other words not at all) or is it always? It has been my accepting compromise in my mind; pure and simple… Then, of course from that, the natural out cropping is judgment…I have had it on them; encouraging them to choose peace instead of conflict, yada, yada… Its so cute to look at now; the little ego tag game of blame-complain-explain…
Here’s the thing I love… The Holy Spirit’s game plan, always, easily, already, trumps every card, every hand, every game the ego plays… and once chosen, is immediately revealed and available Here’s today’s…
Forgiveness!!! That is the key... to the course, life and happiness..
Here's a quote form David that warmed my heart and mind when I was reading emails this morning. I just couldn't wait to share it on my new blogspace:
"The use of symbols by the Holy Spirit leads beyond the symbols entirely. Symbols are never the problem while opening to the Love within. The ego's use of symbols for its purpose is the problem, and forgiveness overlooks the problem. Forgiveness must be comprehensively and thoroughly and inclusively accepted for consistent peace of mind to be experienced. Forgiveness is the gateway to Mysticism and complete forgiveness (Atonement) is synonymous and simultaneous with Mysticism...
God's Grace shines upon you. Everyone is Called to forgive and remember the Love that is our Home and Identity, and those who allow the memory back into awareness know the full extent of God's Grace. Everyone we seem to meet along the way is offering a blessing and a precious opportunity to release the past and see past the error. While economic and social and political trends seem to shift and change, the lesson of forgiveness shows the cycles to be the same: illusory. All that seemed to be gives way to a Present experience, and only a blessing remains."
I awoke early today, about one am. I generally awake around three-fourish. The morning meditation/acim study time is a something I have been waking naturally to for many years. It is my favorite time of the day. Here's the thing i have been wrestling with... Staying put in the perfect Mind of Love as move about in my day... Well, no more... uncompromising must mean uncompromising... Today, this instant I choose only Love's Will for me...
~We have Lift-off~
We talk new beginnings, but does the living into the unknown of that decision unfold so easily? Do I allow the subtle, indefinable fear associated with it justify delay and distraction.... once again getting caught up in details distraction lays out ... Then do I allow myself to loose sight of my new found purpose? ... well?
Well, NOT TODAY! Today, this moment I approach each new Now with the reverence it deserves, I break open the fragile shell of of the ancient strategic mind and look lovingly upon this newborn moment with innocent eyes; taking direction only from it... Love is always it's sponsor... I can't help but be in good company!!!
