This morning I was mentally starting down some primrose path of worry, when it occurred to me just how absolutely irresponsible that kind of thinking is. I parallel it to thinking about drinking or being afraid of drinking, which is just plain irresponsible thinking for a recovering alcoholic like myself. The alcoholic thought form was given to the God, trading in for peace... And there it stays.

I have seen the light that is the Christ; everywhere and everyone.

So , what-up with the stinkin’ thinkin’?

It’s like I was sitting in the train station of the dream and rather than doing nothing and blessing (forgiving) all the brothers reflected there, some erroneous thought train of the separation variety, comes by, in other words, I see a problem.  And rather than immediately questioning its source and seeing its falsity, I hop on the train thinking I can just party off the discomfort from establishing a problem in my mind rather than immediately forgive, and expect not to loose contact with communication ... Lord knows how long the drunk will last and what the fall-out will be. Once you’ve chosen a different source of self to operate from, you’re at the mercy of its dictates for as long as it wants, till it spits you out at deaths door. The miracle is easy to choose then… but isn’t that what the Atonement is for, to save me from this needless journey to the cross? Haven’t I unlearned/learned that much?

Any justification on my part to imagine a problem is just Lazy addictive thinking. Imagining I can think without questioning is just plain irresponsible.

I am sorry…Please forgive me…Thank you…I love you.