The mass illusion of my so-called life or LOVE-NOW… that is the question…It’s gets down to this: it’s all about me … total responsibility: what do I want and how much do I want it.
Fear or love; hostage or host… my choice… my total responsibility!!! It’s just about turning to spirit in any form I think I find myself in and letting it rip... expressing however. It’s not like love cares, after all. I am all too familiar with catching myself with my proverbial ego pants -down', acting out the very drama I designed to delude myself into believing I was ‘doing spirituality/life the right way’ … as if… only to find myself back feeling ashamed and guilty. The attraction to guilt is a huge obstacle and one seemingly hard-wired into my little illusory brain. It shows up in the most bazaar ways like not wanting to do anything, see people, make any kind of commitments, and procrastinate, yada yada. Blah, blah… I feel the stirring of spirit, and then let fear immobilize me, talking time and space as if…
“FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, NO LONGER SEEK FOR
It’s all my mind. It is the mind of God that I am serving… of nothing at all… so I am pretending or being. Nothing is happening until I decide to be truly helpful. I am only helpful in the right mind... It is my total freedom and my total responsibility. I stand in this place, being present. Here, Now. That’s all.
If I am not showing up for this one responsibility; this one life, the one I share with God, it is because fear has replace love in my mind…and correction is necessary befor anything can happen.
The correction of fear is my responsibility! When I am afraid it is a sign that I have raised bodily thoughts to the level of the mind. What I must do is cop to the truth of the situation and call it what it is. It is merely a question of what I want. I simply become aware of when I become afraid. Stop. Remember; I am responsible for what I think. There are no idol thoughts. So if I am afraid I have forgotten who I am. By acknowledging this, I take responsibility and then I can ask Jesus for a correction. The correction to right-mindedness or Love is guaranteed, and a certain as God is now…